Is anyone acrually reading this?

It's a snowy cold Saturday night and I am having a cocktail listening to sad songs. Why you may ask, well there is something about a sad song that makes me feel. They can make my heart ache from being alone. Although i am fine with being alone but sometimes I miss the company. I love Mary Chapin Carpenter's song "The Way I Feel" it is sort of my anthem in life as getting in my car and going somewhere or nowhere is great as long as I have the music. Being in my car and driving is my happy place. No thoughts, just the music and the sing along as I go. Not sure where i am going with this tonight but I felt the need to express and so I type away. So many great songs I am listening to it makes it hard to concentrate on my thoughts as I sing along, I once went and sw a therapist at the urging of a co-wirker and it actually did me wonders. It was probably the first time in my life that I was open and honest with someone, I am someone who keeps their feelings deep down inside me and only show the fun loving side of myself. Not even my family knows the depths of my thoughts (no suicide thoughts in case you were worried), JUst I don't want people to be worried about me as they usually have their own things to worry about, so why burden them with mine. I often wonder if people would miss me if I wasn;t there. This is more of a work question as I don't really belong to a department but help out in all of them. i am the receprionist and therefore some days can be very long if I don't have other work assigned to me and so I play solitaire or go on social media. Well thats all for tonight. Thanks for reading, if anyine actually is.

Random Thoughs

It has been some time since my last blog and I thought it was time to start it up again. The question is where to start. I am sitting here right now watching one of my favorite movies "The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel". "Everything is alright in the end and if it's not alright then it is not the end". One of the best comments ever in a movie that I coukd completely agree upon. When you watch a movie, especially a romance or as they call them a "romcom" you want your life to be like that but of course it is not. You could be the beauty who thinks they are not or the ugly duckling who never finds love but either way you are lonely looking for love. I have always felt like a duckling. People expect and want so much from people now a days. We should all be perfect and ready to take on the world. Life could be like a movie if you want it bit really it will never happen. Princess Bride - where is my Miricale Max to save the day? You Got Mail - meeting the person you have a connection with on line and making life changes. Strictly Ballroom - could I ever be the novice dancer that finds love? Of course I could name a lot of 80's and 90's movies, just thinking of John Hughes movies alone could make you think of what could have been. How many people wish they lived the life based on a movie? I find that movies now lack that romcom feel. Everything is Marvel or SciFi or just has no interest to me. I miss the fun movies that could make you laugh and cry at the same time. Then there is music. I am a lover of the 70's music becasue that is what I grew up with. I have several different playlists that have a variety of music genres on them. Classical to rock, country and everything inbetween. In mym ar it is a contiuous concert of me belting out tunes as I travel the roads. I don't care who sees me. In fact when you look around at other drivers they all seem angry, bored or just blah. They need to turn up the volume and enjoy whatever they are listening to. Well that is it for today but I feel I might be doing these observations more and more. Stay tuned.