Is anyone acrually reading this?

It's a snowy cold Saturday night and I am having a cocktail listening to sad songs. Why you may ask, well there is something about a sad song that makes me feel. They can make my heart ache from being alone. Although i am fine with being alone but sometimes I miss the company. I love Mary Chapin Carpenter's song "The Way I Feel" it is sort of my anthem in life as getting in my car and going somewhere or nowhere is great as long as I have the music. Being in my car and driving is my happy place. No thoughts, just the music and the sing along as I go. Not sure where i am going with this tonight but I felt the need to express and so I type away. So many great songs I am listening to it makes it hard to concentrate on my thoughts as I sing along, I once went and sw a therapist at the urging of a co-wirker and it actually did me wonders. It was probably the first time in my life that I was open and honest with someone, I am someone who keeps their feelings deep down inside me and only show the fun loving side of myself. Not even my family knows the depths of my thoughts (no suicide thoughts in case you were worried), JUst I don't want people to be worried about me as they usually have their own things to worry about, so why burden them with mine. I often wonder if people would miss me if I wasn;t there. This is more of a work question as I don't really belong to a department but help out in all of them. i am the receprionist and therefore some days can be very long if I don't have other work assigned to me and so I play solitaire or go on social media. Well thats all for tonight. Thanks for reading, if anyine actually is.